The dreaded topic.

It's true. 
The topic we never want to talk about.
Weight & working out.
I hate this topic. 
Simply because I have never enjoyed working out. & I hate talking about it because of that.
People always say, when you want to make the change you will, but it has to be for you...
So how come I never wanted to.. ya know?
Well, I feel as though the change has come!! 
I figured out why I never enjoyed working out.. because I find it boring and repetitive. 
But then.. zumba came along :) and changed my life. it got me in the mood to start working out. 2 times a week was okay at first, but then i wanted more. So now I do a mix of.. zumba, stair stepper and Insanity!
It's been going great and I"m seeing great results. 
**I feel like i'm rambling**


One thing I keep wondering is.. why do we do some of the things that we do?
Such as:
-Why do we stay up late on Facebook when we know we have to be up at 6am for work or school?  Is Facebook that interesting? Is the conversation you're having that important?(sometimes it is... i understand) but why?!
-Today I didnt work until 2:00pm. Why didn't I work out before? Because... no reason. I just didn't . So I didn't get home until 9:30. I didn't want to work out.. I was "tired" but then i thought "no courtney!!!" because I know the minute I got in bed, I would grab my laptop and get online and be on for at least another hour or two. When I could be working out! No worries.. i worked out. for 30 minutes! good times. but seriously.. why do we have such lazy thoughts?
-Why do we think that cake and cookies and candies and such make us "feel better"? Really? they don't make me feel better, they taste good for the 30 seconds they're going from my mouth to my stomach.. but after that? yeah.. sickly tummy! Why do we do this to ourselves?!
I'm not saying no more candy, but when you're trying to lose weight... is that candy bar really going to help you? Or make your next work our suck?
** I still feel like i'm rambling**


Anyways, that's the gist of my thoughts. 
I'm liking where I see myself going.
I've really been trying to focus on myself lately. As in, taking care of myself and getting to where I need to be. And I feel it working. And it makes me happy :)


I love you all. 
I promise better posts (w/ pictures) when I get to school!


Peace & Blessings