Sunday, July 17, 2011

Hey Strangers :)

Alright, so my blog is pretty sad right now, which i'm sure you are all too ;)
I thought that when I came to school I would have more time to blog about the awesome things that have happened this semester! FALSE!
I have had NO time. I'm always running around, writing papers, doing homework, or taking tests and quizzes!... ok, not all the time. I do have a social life :)
But that's the other thing! I haven't taken my camera out all semester. I kind of suck at taking pictures now. 
But overall, this semester has been a great one!

Let me fill you in on my time here in Rexburg the last three months.

Classes: My classes were great! I'm pretty proud of my work that i've done in all of them... I took a marriage prep class which was amazing. If any of you get a chance to take it... i highly recommend it. English 101 was amazing because I had an outstanding teacher. She is truly an angel! American Foundations... still kicked my butt. BUt i'm ok with it! In my religion class I made a new life long friend, she's so great! And my vocal class... oh my vocal class was great :) So hilarious and so easy. i was able to sing songs of my own choice for recitals and having my best friend Tyler in the class made it that much more fun!

Roommates: Let's start with Stacey. She is truly an angel sent from Heaven. I'm pretty sure she was brought into my life for more than one reason. She has taught me so much in such a short amount of time.
Paige: I consider her the mother of the household. She is the one who always wants to cook us dinner and such. She's always looking out for us. I love it.
Cassandra: My best friend since we were little! We were both a little nervous to live together but we were just fine :) I loved having her right across the hallway to talk. 
Wendy: Wendy is hilarious. She is so blunt in the way she talks about things and I love it! She's  not afraid to speak her mind. I know that when i'm having a bad day, maybe because of a boy, i can talk to her and she'll easily have a boy bashing party with me. 
Nicole: My room-roommate. She's been pretty great! She lets me talk to her about things that she has no idea what's going on... my stories can be boring sometimes but she always listens. She's always willing to help AND she came to my final recital which i loved having her there!

I'm grateful for all of my roommates this semester.
I'm also grateful for ALL of the friends i've made. It's amazing how close you can get to people in such a short time. I'm going to miss all of them so so much. But i'm sure i'll see them again :)

Sorry there's no pictures... i wasn't lying when I said I haven't taken any. 
If you're still reading this.. I love you.

Peace & Blessings

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Hello Friends :)

I know, its been a while. 
But oh well :)

I'm taking a marriage prep class... Yes, haha! Not that i'm anywhere close to getting married. But I am so glad i'm in this class! It's amazing what you learn about yourself. I am loving every day of it. Today our assignment was to read "How Do I Love Thee?" that Jeffrey R. Holland gave at a devotional the day after Valentines Day. Holy cow!!! IT'S  SO GOOD!! So i'm posting it here. All of it :) Seriously, take ten or fifteen minutes to read it. love you all.

"How Do I Love Thee?"


Jeffrey R. Holland was a member of the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles of
The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints when this devotional
address was delivered at Brigham Young University on 15 February 2000.

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I am delighted to be with you the day after Valentine's Day and the day before Sister Holland's birthday. Guess what is on my mind! Guess what I am going to talk about! Yes, I am going to talk about love, because Shakespeare made me do it. You see, it is the fifteenth of February. If it were the fifteenth of March, it would be the ides of March. And everybody remembers what Brutus did to Julius Caesar on the ides of March--and it befell Mark Antony to get back at Brutus in the great funeral oration, the same Mark Antony who let Cleopatra take him for the proverbial trip up the Nile without a paddle. Never mind that the ides of February were actually the day before yesterday. I am certainly not going to let that stop me from speaking about love and romance and marriage--a topic absolutely foreign to the interests of those on the BYU campus and one scarcely mentioned here this entire month. Indulge me. Pretend you are interested--if only because Sister Holland is my valentine and it is her birthday tomorrow.

You know, winning Sister Holland was not an easy thing to do. I worked at it and worked at it and worked at it until I finally had the courage to ask for her hand. In a romantic setting I said as meekly and humbly as I could, "Pat, will you marry me?"

To which she said, "Oh, dearest darling, dearest loved one, yes. Yes, yes, yes. When shall we set the date? Oh, we have got to reserve the temple. I know exactly what colors I want for the bridesmaids. Should we have the reception indoors or out? And someone must be at the guest book. And I can just see in my mind the cake that we want. . . ."

Then she stopped mid-sentence and said, "Oh, darling. You are so overcome you are speechless. Here I have just gone on and on. Wouldn't you like to say something on this night of nights?"
To which I replied, "I think I have said too much already."
She counters that story by reminding me that when I arrived for our first date, her little brother shouted to her, "Hey, dreamboat, your barnacle is here!"
Actually neither of those stories is true, but who knows? Maybe you can use them someday when you have to speak at BYU on love and marriage.
Do let me now be serious. What I have learned of romantic love and the beauty of marriage I have learned from Sister Holland. I am honored to be her husband and am happy for you that she is on this campus again this morning, if only for an hour or two. As I once said of her, paraphrasing what Mark Twain's Adam said of his Eve, "Wherever she was, there was paradise" (see "Adam's Diary").
I wish to speak to you this morning about Christlike love and what I think it can and should mean in your friendships, in your dating, in serious courtship, and, ultimately, in your marriage.
I approach the subject knowing full well that, as a newly engaged young woman said to me just last month, "There is certainly a lot of advice out there!" I don't want to add needlessly to this rhetoric on romance, but I believe that second only to your membership in the Church, your "membership in a marriage" is the most important association you will have in time and eternity--and to the faithful what doesn't come in time will come in eternity. So perhaps all of you will forgive me for offering, yes, more advice. But I wish it to be scriptural advice, gospel advice. Advice, if you will, that is as basic to life as it is to love--counsel that is equally applicable to men and to women. It has nothing to do with trends or tides of the time or tricks of the trade but has everything to do with the truth.

So may I put your friendships and dates and eventually your marriages in a scriptural context this morning and speak to you of what I will try to communicate as true love.
After a long wonderful discourse by Mormon on the subject of charity, the seventh chapter of Moroni tells us that this highest of Christian virtues is more accurately labeled "the pure love of Christ."

And it endureth forever; and whoso is found possessed of it at the last day, it shall be well with him [and her].
Wherefore, . . . pray unto the Father with all the energy of heart, that ye may be filled with this love, which he hath bestowed upon all who are true followers of his Son, Jesus Christ; that ye may become the sons [and daughters] of God; that when he shall appear we shall be like him, for we shall see him as he is; . . . that we may be purified even as he is pure. [Moroni 7:47–48]

True charity, the absolutely pure, perfect love of Christ, has really been known only once in this world--in the form of Christ Himself, the living Son of the living God. It is Christ's love that Mormon goes to some length to describe for us and that Paul the Apostle did as well some years before, writing to the Corinthians in New Testament times. As in everything, Christ is the only one who got it all right, did it all perfectly, loved the way we are all to try to love. But even though we fall short, that divine standard is there for us. It is a goal toward which we are to keep reaching, keep striving--and, certainly, a goal to keep appreciating.

And as we speak of this, may I remind you, as Mormon explicitly taught, that this love, this ability, capacity, and reciprocation we all so want, is a gift. It is "bestowed"--that is Mormon's word. It doesn't come without effort and it doesn't come without patience, but, like salvation itself, in the end it is a gift, given by God to the "true followers of his Son, Jesus Christ." The solutions to life's problems are always gospel solutions. Not only are answers found in Christ, but so is the power, the gift, the bestowal, the miracle of giving and receiving those answers. In this matter of love, no doctrine could be more encouraging to us than that.

I have taken for a title to my remarks Mrs. Browning's wonderful line "How do I love thee?" (Elizabeth Barrett Browning,Sonnets from the Portuguese [1850], no. 43.) I am not going to "count the ways" this morning, but I am impressed with her choice of adverb--not when do I love thee nor where do I love thee nor why do I love thee nor why don't you love me, but, rather, how. How do I demonstrate it, how do I reveal my true love for you? Mrs. Browning was correct. Real love is best shown in the "how," and it is with the how that Mormon and Paul help us the most.

The first element of divine love--pure love--taught by these two prophets is its kindness, its selfless quality, its lack of ego and vanity and consuming self-centeredness. "Charity suffereth long, and is kind, [charity] envieth not, and is not puffed up, seeketh not her own" (Moroni 7:45). I have heard President Hinckley teach publicly and privately what I suppose all leaders have said--that most problems in love and marriage ultimately start with selfishness. In outlining ideal love in which Christ, the most unselfish man who ever lived, is the great example, it is not surprising that this scriptural commentary starts here.

There are many qualities you will want to look for in a friend or a serious date--to say nothing of a spouse and eternal companion--but surely among the very first and most basic of those qualities will be those of care and sensitivity toward others, a minimum of self-centeredness that allows compassion and courtesy to be evident. "That best portion of a good man's life [is] his . . . kindness," said Mr. William Wordsworth (Lines Composed a Few Miles Above Tintern Abbey [1798], lines 33–35). There are lots of limitations in all of us that we hope our sweethearts will overlook. I suppose no one is as handsome or as beautiful as he or she wishes, or as brilliant in school or as witty in speech or as wealthy as we would like, but in a world of varied talents and fortunes that we can't always command, I think that makes even more attractive the qualities we cancommand--such qualities as thoughtfulness, patience, a kind word, and true delight in the accomplishment of another. These cost us nothing, and they can mean everything to the one who receives them.

I like Mormon and Paul's language that says one who truly loves is not "puffed up." Puffed up! Isn't that a great image? Haven't you ever been with someone who was so conceited, so full of themselves that they seemed like the Pillsbury Doughboy? Fred Allen said once that he saw such a fellow walking down Lovers' Lane holding his own hand. True love blooms when we care more about another person than we care about ourselves. That is Christ's great atoning example for us, and it ought to be more evident in the kindness we show, the respect we give, and the selflessness and courtesy we employ in our personal relationships.
Love is a fragile thing, and some elements in life can try to break it. Much damage can be done if we are not in tender hands, caring hands. To give ourselves totally to another person, as we do in marriage, is the most trusting step we take in any human relationship. It is a real act of faith--faith all of us must be willing to exercise. If we do it right, we end up sharing everything--all our hopes, all our fears, all our dreams, all our weaknesses, and all our joys--with another person.

No serious courtship or engagement or marriage is worth the name if we do not fully invest all that we have in it and in so doing trust ourselves totally to the one we love. You cannot succeed in love if you keep one foot out on the bank for safety's sake. The very nature of the endeavor requires that you hold on to each other as tightly as you can and jump in the pool together. In that spirit, and in the spirit of Mormon's plea for pure love, I want to impress upon you the vulnerability and delicacy of your partner's future as it is placed in your hands for safekeeping--male and female, it works both ways.

Sister Holland and I have been married for nearly 37 years, just a half-dozen or so years short of twice as long as we have lived without each other. I may not know everything about her, but I know 37 years' worth, and she knows that much of me. I know her likes and dislikes, and she knows mine. I know her tastes and interests, hopes and dreams, and she knows mine. As our love has grown and our relationship has matured, we have been increasingly free with each other about all of that.
The result is that I know much more clearly now how to help her, and, if I let myself, I know exactly what will hurt her. In the honesty of our love--love that can't truly be Christlike without such total devotion--surely God will hold me accountable for any pain I cause her by intentionally exploiting or hurting her when she has been so trusting of me, having long since thrown away any self-protection in order that we could be, as the scripture says, "one flesh" (Genesis 2:24). To impair or impede her in any way for my gain or vanity or emotional mastery over her should disqualify me on the spot to be her husband. Indeed, it should consign my miserable soul to eternal incarceration in that large and spacious building Lehi says is the prison of those who live by "vain imaginations" and the "pride of the world" (1 Nephi 11:36, 12:18). No wonder that building is at the opposite end of the field from the tree of life representing the love of God! In all that Christ was, He was not ever envious or inflated, never consumed with His own needs. He did not once, not ever, seek His own advantage at the expense of someone else. He delighted in the happiness of others, the happiness He could bring them. He was forever kind.

In a dating and courtship relationship, I would not have you spend five minutes with someone who belittles you, who is constantly critical of you, who is cruel at your expense and may even call it humor. Life is tough enough without having the person who is supposed to love you leading the assault on your self-esteem, your sense of dignity, your confidence, and your joy. In this person's care you deserve to feel physically safe and emotionally secure.
Members of the First Presidency have taught that "any form of physical or mental abuse to any woman is not worthy of any priesthood holder" and that no "man who holds the priesthood of God [should] abuse his wife in any way, [or] demean or injure or take undue advantage of [any] woman"--and that includes friends, dates, sweethearts, and fiancĂ©es, to say nothing of wives (James E. Faust, "The Highest Place of Honor," Ensign, May 1988, 37, and Gordon B. Hinckley, "Reach Out in Love and Kindness," Ensign, November 1982, 77).
If you are just going for pizza or to play a set of tennis, go with anyone who will provide good, clean fun. But if you are serious, or planning to be serious, please find someone who brings out the best in you and is not envious of your success. Find someone who suffers when you suffer and who finds his or her happiness in your own.

The second segment of this scriptural sermon on love in Moroni 7:45 says that true charity--real love--"is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil, and rejoiceth not in iniquity." Think of how many arguments could be avoided, how many hurt feelings could be spared, how many cold shoulders and silent treatments could be ended, and, in a worst-case scenario, how many breakups and divorces could be avoided if we were not so easily provoked, if we thought no evil of one another, and if we not only did not rejoice in iniquity but didn't rejoice even in little mistakes.

Temper tantrums are not cute even in children; they are despicable in adults, especially adults who are supposed to love each other. We are too easily provoked; we are too inclined to think that our partner meant to hurt us--meant to do us evil, so to speak; and in defensive or jealous response we too often rejoice when we see them make a mistake and find them in a fault. Let's show some discipline on this one. Act a little more maturely. Bite your tongue if you have to. "He that is slow to anger is better than the mighty; and he that ruleth his spirit than he that taketh a city" (Proverbs 16:32). At least one difference between a tolerable marriage and a great one may be that willingness in the latter to allow some things to pass without comment, without response.
I mentioned Shakespeare earlier. In a talk on love and romance you might well expect a reference to Romeo and Juliet. But let me refer to a much less virtuous story. With Romeo and Juliet the outcome was a result of innocence gone awry, a kind of sad, heartbreaking mistake between two families that should have known better. But in the tale of Othello and Desdemona the sorrow and destruction is calculated--it is maliciously driven from the beginning. Of all the villains in Shakespeare's writing, and perhaps in all of literature, there is no one I loathe so much as I loathe Iago. Even his name sounds evil to me, or at least it has become so. And what is his evil, and Othello's tragic, near-inexcusable susceptibility to it? It is the violation of Moroni 7 and 1 Corinthians 13. Among other things, they sought for evil where none existed, they embraced imaginary iniquity. The villains here rejoiced not "in the truth." Of the innocent Desdemona, Iago said, "I turn her virtue into pitch; / And out of her own goodness make the net / That shall enmesh them all" (William Shakespeare, Othello, act 2, scene 3, lines 366–68). Sowing doubt and devilish innuendo, playing on jealousy and deceit and finally murderous rage, Iago provokes Othello into taking Desdemona's life--virtue turned into pitch, goodness twisted into a fatal net.

Now, thank heavens, here in Happy Valley this morning we are not talking of infidelity, real or imagined, or of murder; but in the spirit of a university education, let's learn the lessons being taught. Think the best of each other, especially of those you say you love. Assume the good and doubt the bad. Encourage in yourself what Abraham Lincoln called "the better angels of our nature" (First Inaugural Address, 4 March 1861). Othello could have been saved even in the last moment when he kissed Desdemona and her purity was so evident. "That [kiss] dost almost persuade / Justice to break her sword!" he said (act 5, scene 2, lines 16–17). Well, he would have been spared her death and then his own suicide if he had broken what he considered justice's sword right then and there rather than, figuratively speaking, using it on her. This tragically sad Elizabethan tale could have had a beautiful, happy ending if just one man, who then influenced another, had thought no evil, had rejoiced not in iniquity, but had rejoiced in the truth.
Thirdly and lastly, the prophets tell us that true love "beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things" (1 Corinthians 13:7). Once again that is ultimately a description of Christ's love--He is the great example of one who bore and believed and hoped and endured. We are invited to do the same in our courtship and in our marriage to the best of our ability. Bear up and be strong. Be hopeful and believing. Some things in life we have little or no control over. These have to be endured. Some disappointments have to be lived with in love and in marriage. These are not things anyone wants in life, but sometimes they come. And when they come, we have to bear them; we have to believe; we have to hope for an end to such sorrows and difficulty; we have to endure until things come right in the end.
One of the great purposes of true love is to help each other in these times. No one ought to have to face such trials alone. We can endure almost anything if we have someone at our side who truly loves us, who is easing the burden and lightening the load. In this regard, a friend from our BYU faculty, Professor Brent Barlow, told me some years ago about Plimsoll marks.

As a youth in England, Samuel Plimsoll was fascinated with watching ships load and unload their cargoes. He soon observed that, regardless of the cargo space available, each ship had its maximum capacity. If a ship exceeded its limit, it would likely sink at sea. In 1868 Plimsoll entered Parliament and passed a merchant shipping act that, among other things, called for making calculations of how much a ship could carry. As a result, lines were drawn on the hull of each ship in England. As the cargo was loaded, the freighter would sink lower and lower into the water. When the water level on the side of the ship reached the Plimsoll mark, the ship was considered loaded to capacity, regardless of how much space remained. As a result, British deaths at sea were greatly reduced.

Like ships, people have differing capacities at different times and even different days in their lives. In our relationships we need to establish our own Plimsoll marks and help identify them in the lives of those we love. Together we need to monitor the load levels and be helpful in shedding or at least readjusting some cargo if we see our sweetheart is sinking. Then, when the ship of love is stabilized, we can evaluate long-term what has to continue, what can be put off until another time, and what can be put off permanently. Friends, sweethearts, and spouses need to be able to monitor each other's stress and recognize the different tides and seasons of life. We owe it to each other to declare some limits and then help jettison some things if emotional health and the strength of loving relationships are at risk. Remember, pure love "beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things," and helps loved ones do the same.

Let me close. In Mormon's and Paul's final witnesses, they declare that "charity [pure love] never faileth" (Moroni 7:46, 1 Corinthians 13:8). It is there through thick and thin. It endures through sunshine and shadow, through darkest sorrow and on into the light. It never fails. So Christ loved us, and that is how He hoped we would love each other. In a final injunction to all his disciples for all time, He said, "A new commandment I give unto you, That ye love one another; as I have loved you" (John 13:34; emphasis added). Of course such Christlike staying power in romance and marriage requires more than any of us really have. It requires something more, an endowment from heaven. Remember Mormon's promise: that such love--the love we each yearn for and cling to--is "bestowed" upon "true followers of Christ." You want capability, safety, and security in dating and romance, in married life and eternity? Be a true disciple of Jesus. Be a genuine, committed, word-and-deed Latter-day Saint. Believe that your faith has everything to do with your romance, because it does. You separate dating from discipleship at your peril. Or, to phrase that more positively, Jesus Christ, the Light of the World, is the only lamp by which you can successfully see the path of love and happiness for you and for your sweetheart. How should I love thee? As He does, for that way "never faileth." I so testify and express my love for you and for Him, in the sacred name of the Lord Jesus Christ, amen.

Sunday, May 1, 2011


I have this friend.

Who knows everything about me.
Who is always there for me.
Who knows how to make me laugh in any situation.
Who  doesn't care what people think of them.
Who cares for me.
Who takes care of me when I need it.
Who loves my family.
Who is beyond talented in many things.
Who knows why I am the way I am.
Who accepts me for me.
Who makes up silly hand shakes with me.
We make up songs & don't find it strange at all.
Who looks out for me.
Who loves Glee as much as I do.
& accepts that :)
Who is honest with me.
Who Accepts my honesty.
Who helps me want to be a better person.
Who cares tremendously for others.
Who goes to Stadium Singing with me.. even though they might not want to :).. thanks so much!
Who wants the best for me.

& I feel the same way towards this person.
They are truly amazing & I can't picture my life without them.

Thank you, Tyler. For everything.

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

The dreaded topic.

It's true. 
The topic we never want to talk about.
Weight & working out.
I hate this topic. 
Simply because I have never enjoyed working out. & I hate talking about it because of that.
People always say, when you want to make the change you will, but it has to be for you...
So how come I never wanted to.. ya know?
Well, I feel as though the change has come!! 
I figured out why I never enjoyed working out.. because I find it boring and repetitive. 
But then.. zumba came along :) and changed my life. it got me in the mood to start working out. 2 times a week was okay at first, but then i wanted more. So now I do a mix of.. zumba, stair stepper and Insanity!
It's been going great and I"m seeing great results. 
**I feel like i'm rambling**

One thing I keep wondering is.. why do we do some of the things that we do?
Such as:
-Why do we stay up late on Facebook when we know we have to be up at 6am for work or school?  Is Facebook that interesting? Is the conversation you're having that important?(sometimes it is... i understand) but why?!
-Today I didnt work until 2:00pm. Why didn't I work out before? Because... no reason. I just didn't . So I didn't get home until 9:30. I didn't want to work out.. I was "tired" but then i thought "no courtney!!!" because I know the minute I got in bed, I would grab my laptop and get online and be on for at least another hour or two. When I could be working out! No worries.. i worked out. for 30 minutes! good times. but seriously.. why do we have such lazy thoughts?
-Why do we think that cake and cookies and candies and such make us "feel better"? Really? they don't make me feel better, they taste good for the 30 seconds they're going from my mouth to my stomach.. but after that? yeah.. sickly tummy! Why do we do this to ourselves?!
I'm not saying no more candy, but when you're trying to lose weight... is that candy bar really going to help you? Or make your next work our suck?
** I still feel like i'm rambling**

Anyways, that's the gist of my thoughts. 
I'm liking where I see myself going.
I've really been trying to focus on myself lately. As in, taking care of myself and getting to where I need to be. And I feel it working. And it makes me happy :)

I love you all. 
I promise better posts (w/ pictures) when I get to school!

Peace & Blessings

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Three. Weeks.

I seriously have no life!
I'm going slightly insane. 
I do the same thing every day. work.
Don't get me wrong... I absolutely love my job!
I love the people I work with & I love my kids.
But, it's very repetitive. 
Now, I know I can't be picky. 
& I know that when I get older and start my career, 
it will be the same thing every day.. but it's not working for me right now.
In 3 weeks I will be starting school,
living with friends,
surrounded by numerous amounts of activities
& socializing. 
I. Can't. Wait!
I'm very excited to start something new.

As for now, I will tough it out the next 3 weeks and continue to go to my new favorite thing....

I can't even begin to tell you how amazing this Zumba thing is. Such a great work out and it's super fun to go with friends :) I've been going with my friend Karly Leavitt! It's been so much fun! I will definitely be finding a class in Rexburg when I get there. It makes you feel so good about yourself. And there's so many different people there, tall & short, big & small, old & young, coordinated & not coordinated :) I love it. Everyone is so much fun! If you ever get the chance to go.. do it! 
Here's a link to some pictures that the post register took there one night!

I promise you that once i start school, I will DEFINITELY be blogging more. 
I love you all

Peace & Blessings

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Lucky Girl.

1 ear infection (left ear)
1 eye infection (right eye)
1 sinus infection
some incredibly nasty allergies
1 very sad, upset, delusional Courtney.

This has been my life since Saturday night.

This sucks.
Love you all.
Peace & Blessings

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

I Can't Be Mad At You.

"The Nicest Thing"
By Kate Nash
All I know is that you're so nice
You're the nicest thing I've seen
I wish that we could give it a go
See if we could be something

I wish I was your favourite girl
I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world
I wish my smile was your favourite kind of smile
I wish the way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style

I wish you couldn't figure me out
But you always wanna know what I was about
I wish you'd hold my hand
When I was upset
I wish you'd never forget
The look on my face when we first met

I wish you had a favorite beauty spot
That you loved secretly
'Cause it was on a hidden bit
That nobody else could see
Basically, I wish that you loved me
I wish that you needed me
I wish that you knew when I said two sugars,
Actually I meant three

I wish that without me your heart would break
I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake
I wish that without me you couldn't eat
I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep

Look, all I know is that you're the nicest thing I've ever seen
And I wish that we could see if we could be something
Yeah I wish that we could see if we could be something 

My feelings exactly.
PS. I hardly ever put stuff like this on my blog, so enjoy it :)

Saturday, March 5, 2011


Responsibility is something we all must learn.
I just hope that all of you would learn it by the time you're... let's say 29-ish :)
That's my vent for the day.
Be responsible! 

Love you all.
Peace & Blessings

Tuesday, March 1, 2011


So, sometimes in life. 
We come upon these mountain.. or hills.
That we must overcome.
We must be strong and learn to conquer them! 
Well I have a new Mountain in my life.
It's huge... seriously.
One of the biggest ones i've had in a while...
I have a feeling it wont be going away overnight..

I have a big zit that I named George.

Yes... I do have splotches on my face.. trying to get rid of the nasty-ness :) 
ps. I cut 2 1/2 inches off of my hair.. eek!

Love you all.
Peace & Blessings

Sunday, February 27, 2011

There's this 5 year old...

 & she knows how to make me feel better :)
Honestly, this child will probably never understand how much she means to me. I can't be upset around her.. it's impossible.
She can always brighten my day.
You're the best Emilee Morgan :)

Thank you for having a "girl" party with me Friday night :)
You turned my day right around dear.
Love always, Your big sis.

Just for the record...

I hardly ever write super serious, personal stuff on here about my life... & i'm still not going to. But all you should know about tonight is that...

I am NOT excited to write in my journal.

Peace & Blessings

Saturday, February 26, 2011


Well, I got tagged. So let's go.

1. I cry over everything. I am a true baby & always will be.
2. I also worry about everything. I think of the worst possible situation that could happen, simply so I can be prepared for it.
3. I've only had one major surgery in my life.
4. My worst fear is being kidnapped/raped. 
5.I love writing in my journals. The thought that goes through my head is.. "one day, my children will read this."
6. My favorite books are the Hunger Games Series.
7. I was born in California, yet, I've only been on the beach twice.. and not even in California.
8. I am a Diet Dr. Pepper addict.
9. I sometimes think about what i'm going to do about bridesmaids when I get married because I consider a lot of girls my best friends :)
10. I taught myself how to play the guitar and ukulele. 
11. My favorite outfit: V-neck, cardigan and jeans. 
12. I ran my car into a building my junior year of high school. 
13. I am a sucker for boys of different ethnicities. 
14. I will travel when i'm older. 
15. I'm claustrophobic. Big time.

There you go friends :)
I'm not going to tag anyone.. if you want to do this, do it :)

Love you all.

Peace & Blessings 

PS. today sucked.

Monday, February 21, 2011

Oh Tomorrow.

I seriously look forward to this:

and this

Every night... It's my favorite part of the day :)

Love you all :)

Peace & Blessings

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

For You.

I walk into the center around 2:45pm (the center is my work).
Chat with Nathan for a minute, when I hear... "Courtney, Benny's here!"
So I walk out around the corner to find him and there he is, in his adorable spongebob hat (backwards of course) and his new glasses... but wait...
He's holding something behind his back and has a huge grin on his face!

He hold out a cute little fake rose and says "Pa-poy!.. for you Courtney"

I loved it! "pa-poy" is from Despicable Me.. his favorite movie.

It seriously made my day though, he is so adorable & I love working with him!!
I love my job :)

Peace & Blessings

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Nightly Routine.

   Alright, so blog world. I don't even know when I blogged last.. Yes, I could check but oh well :) I just know that it's been far too long.
Just a few things:

1. I had a great birthday! Very simple but I enjoyed every minute of it. I worked and then finished moving my family into our new beautiful house! I Love it :) and then I had dinner at my mom's with my brothers. It was fabulous... even the birthday cake was amazing.. (mom, i have no idea if you read this.. but i wont post the picture of the cake because i love you ) Can I just say... I Love my mom so much :) she's adorable!

So cheesy :)
& this is us :)

2. I wrote my first song on the guitar! I wrote it for my friend Amy, because she wrote me one on my birthday and it was so cute! So i did my best for my first time. It's a little long & cheesy. & has some great Peter Pan references. But if we're friends on facebook, you can check it out HERE! & please let me know what you think!

3. I'm going back to good ol' Rexburg. Yes, it's true. It was decided tonight! I'm actually really excited about it. I feel good about it & im' pretty sure it's where i'm supposed to be... for now :) I will be there in Spring! Yes.. that's in 2 months.. eek! I'm nervous but so ready!

Well friends, thats my life right now. 
Oh! and I love my nightly routine. I love my scripture study and writing in my journal. It's seriously so peaceful to me.. it can't get better than that. It's my time to think and ponder and pray. & I love that :) 

I love you all!
Peace & Blessings

Thursday, February 10, 2011


I've always tried to keep a journal.
I started in like the 6th grade,
but I hated it.
But I found the cutest one in DC and bought it and I became addicted to writing in my journal. If i don't get to it one day... 
i'm constantly thinking about how I didn't document my day.. It's horrible!
The thought process that goes through my head when buying a new journal or when writing in it is:
My kids are going to read this. They're going to think, "man.. this is what mom was like at 19!"
and I want them to be interested and not disgusted & I want the journals to look interesting. Not just some plain Jane thing :)
Anyways, I'm going to go write in my journal now :) 
I'll post a picture of my new one soon.. its so pretty!!!

Peace & Blessings

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Just to inform you:

I am definitely more excited for this:

Than I am for this:

and that's that :]
Love you all so much!

Peace & Blessings

Thursday, February 3, 2011


I have been pretty happy the last week or so. 
I am so incredibly blessed to have the people I have in my life. 
They are truly amazing. 
I am blessed to have people who are constantly building me up 
& not bringing me down. 
I have a great family, who is so incredibly supportive.
I've been hanging out with new people... and it's great :)
I have people who love me for me. 
I'm grateful for love & friendship.
I'm so happy to have the gospel in my life.
It's amazing.
I love late night talks. 
They're my  new favorite.
I bought a uke :)
This is my happy face :)
Don't worry: I do notice that my hair is nast and my make-up has worn off... but i'm ok with it :)

I love you all.

Peace & Blessings

Saturday, January 29, 2011


fantastic!! :]

peace & blessings

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

So this is how it goes..

I figured out why I don't blog a lot.
It's because I feel like I need to post pictures when I blog. 
& I never take pictures! It's sad actually...
I'm going to get better at this, and blogging :) 

Alright, so i'm not going to do a catch-up because that would just take too long. So let's talk about my last 2 days.. almost 3 days.
I have had the flu. and it sucks. big time! I can't remember the last time I've thrown up...It's seriously been years and years. So I've been trying to eat.. and keep the food down. and get rest. But i'm just so uncomfortable. It sucks :( But hopefully i'm better tomorrow. I want to go to work. I miss it.... weird? NO. Blessed!
I'm seriously so blessed to work with the people that I do. They are so good to me. And so incredibly caring and work so well with me :)
& my two favorite ladies at Fairview.. I don't know how I have lived my life not knowing them. 
My family has been great to me.
Angie: Holding my hair back, getting me soda & a wet cloth.
Dad: Keeping me strong & helping me not be a baby. 
Hannah: Making me dinner & filling up my ice water.
Love them!
And it's amazing how many of my friends offer to get me stuff if I need it :) Love them too!

Here are some things i've decided while being sick:

I want a frog like this.
The little sister is obsessed with J. Biebs.
& I'm probably the best color-er around :)

Peace & Blessings